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Have you ever read a line in novel or a clever plot twist that caused you to have author envy?

Well, duh!

Of course I did.

How can I not?

Every time I read Her Majesty Nora Roberts I weep. Her way of starting a book, that first sentence, is something else.

And there’s the plot twists of Abbie Roads’s books.

Nicholas Sparks’intensity.

And then, there’s me. Always scrambling for time, always paranoid about typos because no matter how good my editor and friend Daryl is (and she is good, and thank god for her), how many times I run pages on Grammarly, or I listen to what I wrote, that little buggers hide like their lives depended on it. Which it does, but that’s beyond the point.

English is not my native language, I learned it in my thirties, so I always feel like I’m one step behind, like I have to prove more (to myself). It’s not just writing a story. It’s proving myself I don’t entirely suck and it makes some sense for me to play this game and call it work.

And all those amazing books with amazing prose and amazing opening, and midpoint, and ending that will stay with me forever?

How can I possibly not envy that?

The upside side is that it makes me want to study a little bit more, write a little bit more and in a way, risk a little bit more. A bet for a decidedly not betting woman.

Time will tell, I guess.

What are the authors you envy the most (in a good way)?

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